And It is Over

Today was the last day.  This meant only going in for 2 hours to meet my HR requirement, now I am officially no longer employed by any real corporation or full time job.  Yikes!  Leaving was definitely bittersweet.  I liked my bosses and I feel they will take the brunt of my leaving more than anyone else.  There is a since of guilt for walking away from them.  I just keep reminding myself that this is the right decision and that this was not something I decided to do on a whim.  It built up for months, nearly a year, and I thought it out very thoroughly.

I have set the following rules for myself to try and give my day structure:

*Gym in the morning, shower and get dressed for the day

*Breakfast by 8:30AM

*TV off and move into the office no later than 9AM

*No unplanned snacking during the day

*Work during the day similar to what an office lifestyle is like, at least for the current time being.  Search and apply for freelance writing jobs, prepare for tutoring or work on things for the wine shop.

I dragged myself out of bed this morning by 6:30 and forced Justin to get up with me.  I made us go to the gym.  This is what I am hoping to start doing as my schedule.  If I get up and go to the gym first thing, then there is no chance of me being lazy, sitting around the house, and watching TV or something frivolous all day.

I was supposed to have a tutoring session this morning but the family had to cancel (they told me yesterday) due to another appointment.  Hopefully they will reschedule soon! I am expecting it to be some time next week.   Instead I worked extensively on freelance writing, things for the wine shop and other last minute things I needed to get taken care of by today.

Headed into the office, turned in my badge, said my goodbyes and left.  Like I said, bittersweet.  The melancholy didn’t last too long, I headed over to the wine shop and worked there on event details for about 2 hours.  During this time I got to enjoy a nice glass of a pinot gris to celebrate the new path that my life is on.

Sigh.  Tomorrow is going to be hectic and unfortunately not too work productive.  And then next week will be a whole different animal on its own.  I am hosting my first Thanksgiving!  My family and my in-laws!  I’m excited, thrilled and terrified.  Similar to the emotions of my everyday life.  I should be getting used to this variances!  With that said, I am going to take us on a different journey next week than what we have been doing lately.  No talking about jobs and money and careers, it is something much more difficult than that.

My goal of next week, beginning on Sunday, is to enjoy my Thanksgiving.  Truly appreciate it, live in the moment and thrive in the environment of the holidays.  It’ll be hectic, it’ll be stressful, I will be attempting to cook my first Turkey and it will be an absolutely fabulous experience for me.  So next week, I’ll be documenting the successes and failures of hosting my first Thanksgiving and I am going to take the time to focus on being happy, by my own accord, for the week.  No working, no thinking about working and no feeling guilty about not having a job.  It is time to enjoy being me and the life I have.

To Smile.