First Day

So how did my first day go, you ask?  It was…interesting.  To be honest, I did have a few moments where I realized that I would definitely miss going into an office.  I will miss the structure and separate environment from the house.  I will definitely miss the human interaction.  I keep telling myself that I can’t suddenly become nostalgic about my old job.  There were definite and distinct flaws going on there and just because I personally enjoyed my interaction with some people cannot be a reason to stay some where that I was truly unhappy.

Yesterday went well.  It went shockingly fast.  I was worried I would get sidetracked and start doing household chores.  That did not happen.  To tell you all the truth, I failed to go into the office until after lunch.  I was busy fixing my excel spreadsheet that has our monthly budget (a whole other story in itself.  Let’s just say I keep a household budget with enough line items you would think I was running a small country).  Then I finally relocated and got completely focused.  I got a lot of work done!  I got the file submitted to the wine shop that I have been working on.  I personally thought it looked quite good, but I haven’t gotten any input back.  I always live in fear that when I am being creative that the work I do is terrible and people hate it.  I really need to improve that side of my self esteem!  But I have never really considered myself very creative so it is a scary side of my personality that I don’t feel as secure with as say, data or writing.

Then I got busy on my freelance writing.  I got a few articles written for textbroker.com and submitted some proposals on Guru.com.  I have to be honest, the whole submitting of proposals for my writing is intimidating.  I know it will get easier as I keep doing it but right now I worry I have some major flaws in my proposals.  I think these are things that I will learn with time.  There is one thing I keep reminding myself–failure is okay.  I can’t get discouraged by it!  So I keep plugging away.  I did make some money yesterday writing articles and if I can get focused I’d like to get going again today.  I think after you have a successful (and obtain some income) day, you are so gung-ho to do it again!  I want to see where today can lead me.

And this afternoon, for about 4 hours, I am going to babysit.  The company I am tutoring through has a live-in nanny and aupair sector.  I do not want to be a nanny but I agreed to be on emergency standby if someone gets sick, goes on vacation, etc.  It pays surprisingly well, so I figured why not for a few hours.  It is money coming in and I get to play around for a few hours with a little boy who is about the same age as my nephew.

As some of you have commented–I need to relax with the schedule.  It will come with time and every day may be different.  I have at least already gone to the gym today, eaten breakfast and yes–I am going to move to the office in about 10 minutes.  No staying out here until noon!  And lets see where today leads me!

To Smile.