Reevaluating

I feel like I’m complaining a lot right now, especially on this blog, when I am actually being faced with one of the most exciting opportunities of my lifetime.  I am scared but I need to not let that bring me down.  It is all in how you look at it, right?  And right now I am definitely thinking the glass is half full!

(I almost feel like I am bipolar with my writings on here.)

Tomorrow afternoon Justin and I are leaving for Blacksburg for the Thursday night football game between Virginia Tech and UNC.  I haven’t been to a Thursday night game in years.  Probably at least 4 years to be exact.  I remember always loving them when I lived in Blacksburg.  All your afternoon classes were canceled and as long as your professor wasn’t a curmudgeon, so were your Friday classes. The town got this electric feel to it early in the day on Thursday.  Even though people were going around doing their normal business and attending work, at least for half of the day, you could tell it was a little different.  It was Game Day.

I’m excited to get to go to Blacksburg and experience this once again.  And this weekend will be slightly different from my last few trips down there because Justin is catching a flight out early Friday morning (that is going to be fun driving him to the airport after a late football game the night before!) of Roanoke to Florida for a boys weekend.  So that means I’m spending the rest of the weekend (at least until Saturday morning) with my mother.

Knowing her, she has all sorts of things planned for us to do.  She rarely gets to see me sans-Justin and definitely takes full advantage of the Mother-Daughter time.  I believe there is attic cleaning in my future (dreaded!  Who knows what my father stored up there while he was alive!), I’m sure a dinner out and I believe we are going to see “This is It”.  Time will fly by and I’ll be in my car heading back home in no time.

Now here is were I want this trip to be different from my others as of late.  I always am thinking ahead.  When I say thinking ahead, I mean I’m 2 weeks, or 3 days or at least 4 hours ahead in my mind over what is really going on.  This really prevents me from “stopping and smelling the roses”.  I want to enjoy this trip.  I want to be aware of the electricity of Blacksburg on Thursday night.  I want to appreciate spending the day with my mom.  I want to live in the moment, to be happy in the moment.

This is one of the biggest issues that I need to address with myself. I believe that figuring out how to be happy in the moment will evolve to also include my working life.  I just need to figure out what I need to do to ensure I am actively participating in what I am doing instead of just watching time pass me by.

To Smile.